During meditation today I had a deep insight into my “Journey of Love” or “my Life” or “this grand forgiveness exercise we call life”. How the tapestry of family is woven together became clear to me, at least to a certain point. Perhaps the more I ‘dream’ about this the clearer it will get. The vision goes like this:
the male body given me at birth functions to balance the abundant mental/emotional energies of the Divine Feminine already flowing through my being. (There is no denying this energy as it consumes all that I think, say, and do) Normally a woman would get Masculine energy from a male partner, but this is not how a transgender woman operates or at least not this one (me). The physical energy of the Divine Masculine comes with resistance or reluctance to me, but I have access to this energy when I am willing to embrace it. This resistance to Divine Masculine energy is part and parcel stemming from my Aunts and Grandmother who felt they could not find “a good man” and that in fact they did not even exist. Their painful relationships have flowed over into the next generation as it so often does when these issues are not faced, meaning forgiven.
(I am sorry, Please forgive me, Thank you, I love you – Hoʻoponopono Prayer)
Perhaps they had too much Masculine energy since they were living in a time consumed by it. On a grander scale it could be said all of mankind was overwhelmed with this patriarchal masculine energy and we are now moving into an age of the Divine Feminine.
Our ancestors are an important part of who we are because of the simple principle of Oneness. We are them and they us! This is why we need to know our ancestors and family lines as it gives us insight to who we are and the challenges we are facing. It also gives us ample opportunity to work on them and by this I mean working to clear misconceptions, misdeeds, and karma. It is a balancing of our energies which is nature’s constant function. The phrase “Go with the Flow” applies perfectly here. We are not here to do anything, create anything, or even accomplish anything; we are here simply to balance the flow while simultaneously being the observer of life in this flow. Perhaps this is what is meant by “being yourself”. Let it Be!
:-) Sequoia Elisabeth